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February 23, 2021

Mourning # 4


Mourning # 4

 

In virus time

I get up tired and bored in the morning

I don’t enjoy my cereal

check social media, get dressed, off to work

produce, consume, destroy the planet

I think I have opinions and feelings

do I truly mean anything I do

as I drive the streets do I notice

the bags of trash left out by the sidewalk

to be taken away and recycled

I don’t notice them anymore, there are

too many, I have my sports to keep up on

and dinner to plan, I saw a photo

of a mountain, a mountain range, a continental drift

then a kitten head poking from a toilet paper roll

that made me laugh, it looked so odd.

 

---- John Prine, I loved John Prine, his songs

were simple and sardonic, he made his first

record in 1971, he wrote with a friend every

Tuesday morning, then they had some meatloaf

at a diner next door, then they recorded the song

in the afternoon, about 52 a year, while not

touring. John Prine had cancer in his throat and

tilted his head, he had to learn to sing again

that took years, then he got lung cancer, more

operations and therapy, back to singing, he had

to take his songs to the people. John Prine wrote

a song that I heard on a friend’s LP in 1977 and

I still remember a line about the bottle drinking

the life out of the alcoholic, I still remember that

today, John Prine’s songs will still mean a lot

to a lot of people, he got COVID in March and

died in April at age 73, just 7 years older than

me.

 

 

 

 

February 22, 2021

Mourning # 3


Mourning # 3

 

Uncle Joe will be leading

us in prayer

for the last year no one

has been there.

Now we so need to cry

for all who have died

because even in the land of hate

we care.

 

---- Li Wenliang, on December 30, 2019

told his friends by chat that seven patients

in his hospital had a SARS-like disease

all came from a local seafood market

within hours his text message had

been disseminated and he realized

he would probably be penalized

for giving the warning in Wuhan

the authorities were outraged

Li was questioned, he was forced

to confess, he was already coughing

he had a fever, he checked into a motel

to protect his family, he had to return

to work but was soon hospitalized

by mid-January there were hundreds

the rumormonger, Doctor Li Wenliang,

aged 33, died on February 7, 2020

of the novel coronavirus known as

COVID-19. He leaves a wife, Fu Xuejie

and 2 small sons, one of whom was

born to his widow in June 2020.

 

 

 

February 21, 2021

Mourning # 2


Mourning # 2

 

2020 was the year of death

the Grinning Reaper gorging on souls

not everything or everyone died, of course

but the demons circled all around 

like stone-throwers taking us down

I did not die in 2020, for example

some people I know did and many

famous people I liked

and ideals and illusions and self-esteem

the art of touching another

with your hands last practiced

in February 2020, the year in between.

Time out. Have we been in punishment,

in solitary confinement, on death row,

are we now released? No.

not until we resolve our grief

not until we explore our grief

eat grief for snacks with our TV

(dancing with the stars)

we will never be COVID-free.

 

---- Kim Hussli, ne Kim Derleth, 78, former teacher, died of the novel 

coronavirus on August 29, 2020. Days after her funeral her daughters

Heidi (also a teacher) and Heather got the bug along with Heidi’s 

hubby. Heidi had trouble breathing, two weeks after her mother’s

death, "We knew we shouldn’t hug at the funeral," she said, but ...

Heidi (47) died too. Heather said goodbye on her tablet. 

The feed went dark. “In 19 days half my family …”  she said.

In Green Bay they hide cause of death, but Heidi and Kim became

known and were mourned by students and friends, not by internet

trolls who say that COVID does not exist. “The evil comments broke

my heart.” she said. “Why her and not me?” she said.

 

 

 

 

February 20, 2021

First Mourning

 


With this poem I begin to post a series of mourning poems and obituaries related to the coronavirus. It is unusual to post poems online because if they have appeared on the net they are considered published and will not be published again by most journals. These, however, are a set (30) and probably would not be right for most journals anyway. So I give them directly to you.

I believe in looking feelings in the eye not running away or pretending. If you're happy and you know it ... yes, but if you've just witnessed 2 million deaths, you must be sad, cry and mourn to stay human. You must or you'll never be well. This is not over and even when it is, it will not be over. 


First Mourning

 

I have deplored our focus on futilities

long and loud, pandemically

we need mourning, grief, sadness, thrashing

not getting lost in clouds

of false hope, sports and dope

and so I resolve –

if nobody will mourn the dead

I will

I will cry

I do

have to

will it take all year

the rest of my life

and all those that follow

are we still honoring the victims

of the black plague of 1346-1353?

all 1 or 2 hundred million 

that docked in the port of Messina 

and … pandemonium!

a thousand souls a day

then as now

I will lament

have to

here goes:

 

---- Wayne Oney loved animals

proud father grandfather

husband, dad

loved the beach, talked with everyone

as he was dying face down his daughter

nurse Lindsey Fairchild took pictures from

behind the glass since she wasn’t allowed

in the ICU (I see you!), taking a picture

sending it out to relatives

checking the monitors, is he?

that’s a real person, a good decent person, she thought

in there, this is real people, life or death here, people

then they turned off the machines.

Oney, 69, in good health

had a coughing fit

and never recovered.

 

 

 

 

January 25, 2021

New Eras, New Errors

 

Turning point. You graduate from high school and then what? You move to a new town, a new job, a new lover ... some people still make resolutions at the beginning of every new year. You might succeed, probably not. But you never know the future. This new year began on January 20, 2021. The resolutions make themselves.

I called 2020, back in innocent 2019, "The Year Everything Changes." I'm too psychic for my own good. Wow, what a year full of death and stress and privation and fear! In Sicily, we're still in lockdown after 11 months. Yet, now we have Uncle Joe* and Kamala who will set some things right, already getting it done. I imagine they're swamped with advice from 330 million people all at once. Mine: be sure to get military firearms out of civilian hands and please change the national anthem to 'America the Beautiful'. Okay, I'll settle for one of the above. And climate action.

I've nicknamed 2021, "The Year I Change," and I don't know what that means so I'm going to explore and discover. For one thing I can stop following American politics obsessively. We signed up for the Resistance, mostly online and made of truth, and now we've won. White supremacy is not defeated but we can ignore it again (let the authorities deal with it), and together rebuild our multicultural world. Yes! Everyone holding hands and singing Kum Ba Yah! Yes! So I plan to be a much less regular presence on social media for starters. Then what, what to do with a couple hours a day liberated, maybe read books again? Play my old gourd banjo? Enjoy exercise?

This past year of quarantine, my relationships were all tossed up in the air like when, you know, a tornado rips through your house. I've neglected just about everyone: out of sight, out of mind. I don't know what or why, but it seemed like I was a turtle drawing into my shell to avoid all dangers, real and imaginary. Self-preservation for me, oddly, meant extra isolation. It's easy to phone, but I don't. Talk? No thanks. I want a Nordic winter. My exasperated neurosis.

Soon as we're immune, it's time to shake off my self-preservation instinct and rejoin the human race. To interact, touch and be touched. Then some summer I can safely return to the mountains of the Pacific Northwest alone and unafraid. But first, vaccinations. I try not to fixate on the old normalcy, going backward, because I know that from now on we must go forward solving new problems, slaying dragons. The damage to Mother Earth that we've done and are doing is not going to fix itself. Even in our weakness, we better be strong and ready for the next virus and the next rise of fascism and whatever else we get slapped with.

This year has been the hardest ever. Most days I feel like I can get my daily business done and then I break down like an old car. If that's the new way, so be it. At least, we beat the Nazis again.

Anyone want to make 2021 a year of personal growth along with me? No? Whatever.

Stay safe and warm,

Martin

* my president

January 5, 2021

Music in Memoriam: 2020

2020: The Year of Death. We must mourn. We must always remember all the musicians, writers and others who died, along with so many others. Before my personal list of those who meant a lot to me, let me mention that in the US between 2900-3000 health care workers died of COVID-19 and in Italy about 350. It is hard to comprehend, but we must in order to move on and to honor those that we lost to this terrible pandemic.
 
 


Musicians:
Adam Schlesinger*
Al Kasha (songwriter)
Alan Merrill*
Alfred "Uganda" Roberts
Alto Reed
Armando Manzanero
Barbara Martin (Supremes)
Betty Wright
Bill Pursell (songwriter)*
Bill Smith (Dave Brubeck)
Bill Withers
Billy Joe Shaver
Bob Shane (Kingston Trio)
Bonnie Pointer
Bruce Williamson (Temptations)
Bucky Baxter
Bucky Pizzarelli*
Buddy Cage (New Riders of the Purple Sage)
Buzzy Linhart
Chad Stuart (Chad & Jeremy)
Charley Pride*
Chris Darrow (Nitty Gritty Dirt Band)
Clyde Davenport
Cosmas Magaya (mbira player)*
Dame Vera Lynn
David Olney
David Roback (Mazzy Star)
Eddie Cooley (songwriter)
Eddie Van Halen
Eddy Davis*
Ellis Marsalis Jr.*
Ennio Morricone
Eric Taylor
Eric Weissberg
Ezio Bosso
Gaynel Hodge (songwriter)
Gordon Haskell
Helen Reddy
Henry Gray
Henry Grimes*
Ian Whitcomb
Ivry Gitlis
Jack Sherman (Red Hot Chili Peppers)
Jerry Jeff Walker
Jim Owen
Jim Radford*
Jimmy Cobb (Miles Davis)
Joe Pennington (Hank Williams)
John McKenzie
John Prine*
Johnny Mandel (songwriter)
Johnny Nash
Jorge Santana
Joseph Shabalala
Julian Bream
Justin Townes Earle
Kenny Young (songwriter)
Lee Konitz*
Little Richard
Lynn Evans Mand
Mac Davis
Marcello Abbado
Mark Barkan (songwriter)
Max Crook (songwriter)
Maynard Solomon
McCoy Tyner
Michael Peter Smith (songwriter)
Mike Lilly
Millie Small
Moon Martin (songwriter)
Neil Peart (Rush)
Pete Carr
Peter Green
Phyllis McGuire (McGuire Sisters)
Ray Pennington (songwriter)
Rocco Prestia (Tower of Power)
Rod Bernard
Ron Thompson (John Lee Hooker)
Ronald Bell (Kool & the Gang)
Salome Bey
Spencer Davis
Stan Kesler (songwriter)
Stanley Cowell
Steve Weber
Tommy DeVito (Four Seasons)*
Tony Rice
Toots Hibbert
Trini Lopez*
Walter Lure (Heartbreakers)
Willie K
 
 
Writers:
A.E. Hotchner
Adam David Miller
Alison Lurie
Anne Stevenson
Arrigo Levi
Barbara Neely
Barry Lopez
Bruce Dawe
Bruce Jay Friedman
Bruno Nettl
Charles Portis
Charles Webb
Cheryl Wall
David Clewell
David Scott Milton
Derek Mahon
Diane di Prima
Eaven Boland
Florence Howe
Gail Sheehy
Jan Morris
John le Carre’
Keiko Ito
Larry Kramer
Lewis Warsh
Lisel Mueller
Louis MacAdams
Luis Sepulveda*
Maj Sjowall
Marvin Bell
Max Evans
Michael McClure
Murray Schisgal
Naomi Long Madgett
Natan Zach
Per Olov Enquist
Pete Hamill
Peter Abbs
Ralph Angel
Robert Mezey
Roger Kahn
Rubem Fonseca
Rudolfo Anaya
Ruth Weiss
Shere Hite
Sir Ken Robinson
Stanley Crouch
Terrence McNally*
William Kittredge
Winston Groom
Yuko Kagiwada
 
 
Others:
Brian Dennehy
Bruce Boynton
Buck Henry
C. T. Vivian
Carl Reiner
Chadwick Boseman
Charles Evers
Christo
Chuck Yeager
Curly Neal
Dawn Wells*
Franca Valeri
Fred Willard
Grant Imahara
Harry Britt
Hugh Downs
Jim Lehrer
John Lewis
John Peter Sloan
Joseph Lowery
Ken Osmond (Eddie Haskell)
Max von Sydow
Michael Lonsdale
Nick Cordero*
Orson Bean
Peter Beard
Philippe Daverio
Ralph Barbieri
Robert Bechtle
Robert Braetz
Robert Conrad
Rosalind P. Walter (Rosie the Riveter)
Ruth Bader Ginsburg
Sir Alan Parker
Sir Ian Holm
Sir Sean Connery
Terry Jones
Tom Blackwell*
Wes Wilson
Wilford Brimley
William E. Harbour
 
 
Baseball:
Al Kaline
Bob Gibson
Dick Allen
Don Larsen
Glenn Beckert
Joe Morgan
Johnny Antonelli
Lou Brock
Mike McCormick
Phil Niekro
Ron Perranoski
Steve Dalkowski*
Tom Seaver*
Whitey Ford
 
and in a League of Their Own:
Barbara Thompson
Dorothy Christ
Dorothy Kovalchick
Lois Foster
Magdalen Redman
Margaret Jurgensmeier
Marilyn Jenkins
Mary Pratt
Pauline Pirok
Sallye Carberry
 
 
Victims of police violence:
Ahmaud Arbery
Breonna Taylor
David McAtee
George Floyd
James Scurlock
Mannie Ellis
Michael Ramos
Rayshard Brookes
Sean Monterrosa
Sean Reed
Walter Wallace Jr.
and others
 
 
And not on my list,  but maybe on yours:
Alex Trebek
Allen Garfield*
Ann Reinking
Ben Cross
Bob Kulick
Charlie Daniels
Dame Barbara Windsor
Dame Diana Rigg
Dame Olivia de Haviland
Diego Maradona
Don Shula
Gigi Proietti
Hal Ketchum
Herman Cain*
Hosni Mubarak
James Lipton
Jerry Stiller
Joel Schumacher
K.T. Oslin
Kelly Preston
Kenny Rogers
Kirk Douglas
Kobe Bryant
Mary Higgins Clark
Paolo Rossi
Pat Patterson
Paul Hornung
Pierre Cardin
Rafer Johnson
Regis Philbin
Rhonda Fleming
Robert Trump
Warren Berlinger
 
 
*COVID-19, though others are COVID-related

 

 


September 30, 2020

Robert Bechtle is Dead


I never met Robert Bechtle. I admired his work in museums and at the San Francisco airport where I saw his painting, "Frisco Nova." He was a local guy, born in San Francisco three years after my father. Through his work with hyper-realism, he taught me a valuable lesson about seeing. Seeing what we always see but never see. In photo-like paintings of ordinary places and people and things, Bechtle, a quiet man, yelled: LOOK AT THIS. There's nothing better than this! Look harder! What do you see?

I say to you: Look up. Bechtle's triptych, "Sunset Intersection," is the image and title for this blog. Not to mention the title of my latest novel. I think that's the street I grew up on in the Parkside/Sunset district. Anyway, it's a fascinating work because it seems like the ultimate representation of reality, a painting that takes weeks of hard labor to look like a photo. But it is also mere lines and shades and colors. Turn one of the three upside down to check. It is ultimately abstract art trying to tell you something. Do you get it? Everything we see every second is lines, shades, colors. It is all two dimensional until we touch it. Until we make the first move. So what is real? What's out there, what's in here?

Robert Bechtle died this week at 88. We lost an artist, we lost a teacher. His work, his vision, his wisdom remains. And his "Alameda Gran Torino" over my desk.

July 23, 2020

The Quarantine Chronicles, Day 100.

DAY 100: LAST QUARANTINE CHRONICLE
Balance sheet -- 100 days.
I spent 77 days indoors
never going out, not even onto
the safe balcony -- then unavoidably
7 days in Milan, coronavirus capital
of the world, then 14 days in extra
quarantine, then a swab in the car
then negative results, lockdown is
over, lockdown is over. Safe to reopen.
Whatever.

I disagree, I strongly fear opening
everything up again: is it better
to have a catastrophe to confirm
my dark opinion? or fewer deaths to
show that the business leaders
and their politicos were right?
virus, what virus? we're back in
business, baby! cranking it out, pumping it
assembly-lining it, harvesting,
dishing it up -- down @ Peet's:
what's your name? Covid.
Covid, your coffee's ready!
Right on.

The Great 2020 Distraction -- We
had 12 years to work non-stop to 
survive, then 10 while we discussed it 
at the highest levels -- then we lost a year 
to the bug, civil unrest, sports, elections, and so on.
Online classes ruined education. Fear
of neighbors ruined socialization. Fear
of science ruined our minds.
Fear of death, well, you know ...
So, we've got maybe 9 years left 
until our collective climate suicide --
point of no return, is that ambiguous? --
and we've already declared infinite boredom
with the topic -- We are undeserving; we
are weak, ignorant, helpless children.
After this crud, we think we've survived 
but look ahead, unless we get our 
human being on natural planet Earth
act together now, right now,
turn around the iceberg-bound
Titanic right now ...
We think we have survived
-- we haven't, we won't --
We Thought Wrong.
THE END.

July 22, 2020

The Quarantine Chronicles, Day 99

DAY 99: Well? It's almost over -- the
pestilence, no that's going along fine, killing
methodically like a grim reaper machine, the quarantine
the lockdown, the hunker down, the hibernation
the hiding at home hoping the boogerman
won't find you -- did he? we'll know soon --
when they let us out, can we party?
they say no but we will anyway --will we
be animals running in a stampede
like shoppers on Black Friday?
I'll wait for you in the car -- can we eval-
uate, give ourselves a grade -- Cabin
Fever or Hermit Syndrome, which won out?
for me, the Hermit Syndrome won and is still winning
but I've always been an agoraphobic-introverted type
for you, though, it was Cabin Fever the winner
you're ready to fly, got plans for fun with friends --
no end --no end to fun, no end to friends -- no end 
to our nation-states, our human rights, our health
wealth and sanity -- all we wants is NO END
in sight -- and to see this we have to go outdoors
to check on who's left to look into the mass graves
and watch the lucky leave the wards, look up,
thank the stars -- if you keep hiding in fear, Hermit 
the Frog, you'll never know, never know any real news 
from the street, never know your friends, yourself,
your sanity.

The safe house was nice, but
it's time to leave. The sunlight
is bright, but it's alive.

July 21, 2020

The Quarantine Chronicles, Day 98

DAY 98: It's time to fight, it's time,
every generation -- Women's March,
Climate Strike, March for Our Lives -- 
every year, it's time to fight --
BLACK LIVES MATTER
no ifs, ands, buts, correlaries, addenda --
what a silly slogan, as if they didn't
of course they do
except to the fascists
they don't, so not silly, needed
so we take back the streets and shout
a million strong, not silly, take it seriously
they do, we take back the night
against racism, systemic and personal
-- the parasite on our soul --
we take the governor's mansion
against police brutality, militar-
ization, police murder, cover-ups,
white supremacy, white nationalism
lynching, discrimination, prisons for profit
the KKK good old boys in uniform
got their John in the big house so they raised
their poisonous serpent heads -- Whack 'em
back down, get 'em off the force, they won't change
out of the military, back into a sod-hut in the holler
eating dirt and making moonshine, wearing camo
head to toe
-- yet here I am in quarantine
can't go out for a while and when I do
I must wear a mask and avoid all gatherings 
to hide my identity from the Proud Boy cop thugs
until I'm arrested when the mask goes down
on me but also on you, turn your body-cam off
tape your badge -- but we see you! we know you!
we see your desire to bust heads glowing bright
your contact high for getting permission to do 
the Dark Lord's work, no limitations, like you're infected
with violence, with lust, with avarice and hate
I see the virus running through your veins.